Someone recently asked me what I like to do and I had no answer. My mind froze and an image of my baby popped into my head. Just like that I realized I am in the deepest part of motherhood. The part were you feel like the You that you once knew is a distant memory. You struggle with the idea of admitting you’ve been touched by the taboo subject of postpartum depression. You struggle to go out in crowds because your mind isn’t there right now. Your living in a strangers body and your life is consumed with daily routine your still not used to. It’s foreign but it’s also home. It’s scary but it’s the best joy you’ve known. It’s new but is second nature.
I realized I’m probably not the only one who experience(d/s) motherhood this way. Your days become a collection of early wake ups, wiggly diaper changes, bath time, nap times, little laundry, nursing, play time, teaching and watching your baby soak in and learn everything all while sneaking in time with your significant other whenever possible and everything in between. Everything is NEW and In a word it’s exhausting but in a lifetime it’s everything.
So today I leave all my mamas out there who have ever been in this blissful state with a few thoughts:
1. Be kind to yourself in this phase.
2. Be gentle with your thoughts about yourself.
3. Honor your priorities.
4. Focus on what you’ve accomplished rather then what you haven’t.
5. And last but not least enjoy this phase. Because In the blink of an eye it’s going to be over and you’re going to wonder where it went. Don’t get caught up chasing the next phase of life or you’ll miss the best yet.
It’s raw and it’s real and it’s scary but it’s also wonderful and beautiful and 100% worth it.
But that’s just my two cents. 
✌🏻
XOXO,
A mama in the thick of it
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